Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.

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i feel so weird right now. not just because im high but also because im really confused with where my life iis??? what am i even doing, like am i going to do anything cool ever. if i am 50 in mobys pub with my stupid ugly husband i barely like, i need to stop, breathe and IMMEDIATELY commit suicide because i will then realize my life has become the exact opposite of anything i would remotely want. i wonder how many of my friends are going to end up really happy. i hope all of them. but i doubt it because statistically i bet that’s not really possible. but i hope it anyway. ive done so many weird things. like ive done so many things NONE of my friends know about at all and wont ever know about and they have no idea. thats crazy. i think its kind of weird. i can never tell anyone those things and thats weird. whats the point.